Gut Feelings, Instinct, Heart and Logic.

Hello ladies! This blog post isn't particularly about any events or anything. I was just reading something that provoked this thought in me. I'm looking for your genuine thoughts and opinions so PLEASE after you read text me with what YOU think. I'm looking for perspectives. Maybe I'll make another blog post if i get any words of wisdom and share with you guys. Anyways, let's begin! (Please note I'm listening to BRAT right now)(Idk why that feels like...something you should know.)

So basically, I've had on my mind a lot recently on where our gut instinct/gut feelings/intuition (whatever you want to call it) actually come from. Is it our heart or our head? While following our heart usually means acting on the emotions we feel be it negative or positive, following our brain usually means following our logic and rational thinking. But which is our instinct? Is it a mix of the two? And if it is a mix, what do we do when our head and heart tell us completely different things? Do we compromise and try meet in the middle of them both? AGAIN I AM REALLY LOOKING FOR PERSPECTIVES SO PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!!!!!! I'm so curious as to which people base their life off of. Our "instinct", whatever that really is, leads us through our life. Do you lead with your head or your heart or both? If its slightly different for all of us then is our instinct really all down to what we've experienced? How open and brave we are to taking a risk even if it means getting hurt or "embarrassed"? How guarded we are? How much we want something?

For me I think it's a mix of both. Sometimes (and ideally) my head and heart align and I know exactly what to do or exactly what I think of someone. A lot more times, my heart and head tell me completely different things. Neither ends up being more right or wrong than the other. But it does leave me very confused in the moment of what is the right judgement on someone or a situation. For example, MY GIRL DERVLA JEFFERS!!!! Did not fuck with that girl last year.. She terrified me, I don't even know if it was my heart or my head talking to me. When I met her on orientation, she was (unknowingly to me) hungover and did NOT want to talk to me. This was one of my first interactions in college so I guess I felt rejected maybe? So I think maybe it was my heart. And then my heart influenced my head. But now I love that girl. Maybe I do lead more with my heart and how I feel. Maybe that gets me into trouble sometimes but maybe its the only thing I have left that makes me soft and vulnerable. Feelings are important to me and I enjoy being sensitive and feeling everything so fully. Even if acting on my emotions sometimes leads to rejection or heartbreak or embarrassment, it can also lead to so much joy and fun and excitement. I think that's what makes my life fulfilling. So I think maybe I'll stay leading with my heart. (Unless one of you shares some insightful perspective into why i should lead with my head).

Another final thought. Some people view the world as black and white. Right and wrong. They can't be friends with people that have done 'wrong' things. Or at least not view them the same. Others view more as grey and messy with lots of overlap. They can understand why people do some of the things they do. Understand that SOMETIMES doing a bad thing does not necessarily make you a bad person. Some view the world as both. I think maybe the people who view the world in a black and white way have better instinct cause its easier for them to decipher what they think is wrong, because they don't look at the person as a whole after this bad thing. They just see the bad. Where as people who see the world as more of a grey area have a harder time because they're too focused on the intricacies of the situation. Maybe if it's someone they know well who did the 'bad' thing, all they can see is the good in them. That they held their hair back when they were getting sick. That they listened to them rant about the same thing a million times. That they never ever talked to that person who wasn't nice to you ever again. idk lol. Think I'm at the point where I'm talking nonsense.

Love you guys. Please do tell me what you think in regards to instinct. Bye Bye.